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This afternoon, my two sister-in-laws came over for lunch and a gift exchange. Both Eva and Jami were sick over Christmas so we didn't get to see them at our family gatherings. Earlier in the week I invited them over today so we could spend some time together and was so glad when they both said they could make it (even though both their hubbys couldn't). I made a big pot of soup and some sandwiches and we sat and talked while we ate. We opened gifts and played Scrabble on the iPad after lunch. My nephew, Alex, was so sweet to Nicholas and played with him the entire time. He lined up the cars he brought over right in front of Nicholas and the two boys made car sounds and had so much fun together. It made my heart so happy to see Nicholas interacting with his cousin. It was a wonderful way to spend the last day of 2010!
In November our little girl started to become more interactive and alert. She started smiling, giggling, and playing a lot more this month.
In December we went to a feeding clinic at OHSU and discussed a new diet with Nicholas's neutritionist. The Amino Acid diet has been a welcome change for him and has really made a difference in how he feels. He is so happy and feeling so good now-he has absolutely no tummy troubles and we couldn't be happier!
Ella loves to bounce and kick her legs...thank goodness for the Jolly Jumper!
As I reflect back on 2010, I thank God for all of our blessings. Our children are such a blessing, as are our friends and loved ones.
We hope that 2011 will be an even better year!




The kids opened their stocking gifts from Santa Claus on Sunday evening. They both received so many presents the two days prior from our families that we thought we would save their stockings until the 26th (not that they knew the difference anyway). Nicholas was excited to see what was in his stocking and kept saying "ball!" each time Jeff pulled out an item in the hopes that the next one would be a new toy ball. There weren't any in this stocking, but the one that Santa left at his Gramme & Grandpa's house had plenty of them!
Merry Christmas from our home to yours!











All that praying on Christmas eve must have worked because Nicholas woke up Christmas day feeling great! Even though he was feeling good, Jeff and I decided it would be best for him to stay home from Christmas mass because we don't have a car bed for him to travel safely yet. So Ella and I ventured to mass with my mom & dad, Eric & Tina, and Brett. My parents held Ella most of the mass and she was a perfect angel the entire time. It broke my heart to have only part of our family there, but I also know it was best for Nicholas to stay home with his daddy. After church we went over to my parents' house for brunch and then opened gifts. My brothers both left in the afternoon to attend family gatherings with their girlfriends' families but we stayed at my parents' house all day with the kids. In fact, we didn't leave until 9:00 p.m. The kids took naps there and Jeff and I played Scrabble with my mom. We ate and talked and watched A Christmas Story movie. It was a wonderful way to spend our Christmas!

These are photos of Nicholas and Ella right before bedtime on Christmas eve. Our Christmas eve plans changed when Nicholas woke up from his afternoon nap and wasn't feeling well. He was coughing and de-stating and just feeling kind of crummy, so he stayed home with daddy while Ella and I went to my folks' Christmas eve party for a couple of hours to see the Hargrave side of the family and some of our friends. We had a great time visiting with everyone, but it didn't feel the same without Nicholas and Jeff there, so I fixed a dinner plate for Jeff and headed home just in time to catch the end of Nicholas's new DVD-Toy Story 3. We cuddled up on the sofa and finished the movie and then tucked the kids into bed. By this time, Nicholas was feeling great and only woke up once during the night. Before I went to sleep I thanked God for all He has given us, especially for sending his son, Jesus, to us all. I also asked that he help Nicholas to feel better so that we could celebrate our first Christmas together as a family of four. I fell asleep feeling like I always do on Christmas eve:









This evening I needed to make a quick trip to the mall and I decided to try the Santa visit again, but this time it was just Ella and me. The line wasn't too long and Ella did great meeting St. Nick for the first time...no crying, just happy to be held. I think the photo turned out great. And since Nicholas didn't get to visit Santa (not that he really wanted to anyway) I made a custom Santa video for him:

Yesterday morning we decided to take the kids to visit Santa at our local mall. Nicholas woke up feeling great, so we thought it would the perfect morning to go. We were right, when we arrived at the mall, there were only three or four families in front of us and we decided to wait in line to let the kids sit on Santa's lap. While waiting in line we began to notice that Nicholas was becoming distressed. He was crying a little, and looking somewhat worried. We thought maybe he was nervous about seeing Santa because during the twenty-minute trip to the mall he was talking and laughing and feeling great. We talked to him about Santa and explained what would happen, but he started doing worse, becoming sweaty and pale. I laid his stroller seat back until it was nearly flat and Jeff took him out of line to suction him. I stood in line for a minute or two with Ella in my arms and let a couple of families cut in line in front of us. Finally, I walked over to where Jeff and Nicholas were and Jeff said, "he's not doing good." I took one look at Nicholas and told Jeff, "He's not breathing." I gently laid Ella down on the floor beside the stroller, and yelled for the people standing nearby to call 911 while Jeff suctioned Nicholas again. Then I started CPR. By this time Nicholas was as white as a sheet and looking terrified. On my fourth breath he started coughing and crying and gasping. I silently said a prayer of thanks to God for allowing our son to stay with us. By this time, two people had phoned 911 and were giving them our information. Another man, a local police officer, asked if he could pray over Nicholas, we gladly accepted. We decided to meet the EMTs in the parking lot. Jeff scooped up Nicholas and I picked up Ella and pushed the empty stroller outside the mall. We explained to the EMTs about Nicholas's disease and asked that they check his vitals since we did not have our pulse/ox with us. They didn't have a child size finger monitor so they had a very difficult time reading Nicholas's oxygen and heart rate. They told us they wanted to take Nicholas to OHSU, but also said that we know him best as his parents, and we could refuse service if we thought he was okay. We monitored him in the back of the ambulance for about ten minutes and then decided he was ready to go home. Once again, Jeff held Nicholas in his lap the entire ride back to our house. In the car, Nicholas was back to his normal self, although much quieter than usual. We kept asking him if he was okay, and he would reply, "uh-k." Upon arrival at home we immediately hooked him up to his pulse ox which read 98 O2/132 pulse and we felt relieved. We also did a cough assist/suction treatment to get more air into him and clear out all those yucky secretions.
Now that this has happened twice in a month, we realize that we are going to need to change things in the way we travel with Nicholas. We are looking into getting a car bed for him which will allow him to lay flat while we travel. We will also be bringing his suction and pulse/ox with us wherever we go. We are hoping his pulse/ox will alert us when he's not doing well before he gets to the point of not being able to breathe. We realize that Nicholas's disease is mostly likely progressing, however, we also contribute his extra phlegm to his teething (he's cutting three molars) and his recent cold. At any rate, it is important that we have the proper equipment in place to make sure our little guy is comfortable where ever he goes. For the time being, we are ceasing our weekly two-hour round trips to Shriners for power wheelchair practice simply because we don't have the travel equipment. If any SMA parents are reading this and have any information about things we should try or equipment you use with your kids, we would appreciate your comments.
Since yesterday, Nicholas has been continuously hooked up to his pulse/ox and his stats have remained good and he has not had any further breathing problems. We are staying home this week until Christmas Eve and then we will only be traveling a mile to attend my parents' annual Christmas Eve party. We are also limiting the number of people who come into our home as we are trying to keep Nicholas feeling as well as possible without any outside germs.




Friday, December 31, 2010
Family Lunch
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
2010: A Year in Review
In January of this year, we found out we were expecting our second child. We were surprised but also knew she would be a little blessing from Heaven.
In June we took Nicholas to Disneyland. I am so glad we went when we did. Nicholas was doing pretty well then and really enjoyed our visit to the "Happiest Place on Earth."
In June we took Nicholas to Disneyland. I am so glad we went when we did. Nicholas was doing pretty well then and really enjoyed our visit to the "Happiest Place on Earth."We spent most of the month of August at OHSU in the Children's Hospital. Nicholas had his g-tube surgery while hospitalized which helped him put on some weight. He only weighed 16 lbs when admitted and weighed 22 when he was discharged. He left a much healthier little boy. 

He got out of the hospital just a few weeks before his baby sister was born, which was truly a blessing.
Elizabeth Rose was born on September 15th, a full five days before her due date. Labor and delivery was much better the second time around and Ella is a delightful baby.
In late September and October Nicholas resumed regular physical therapy with his favorite therapists. He started putting on weight again thanks to his new g-tube.
Elizabeth Rose was born on September 15th, a full five days before her due date. Labor and delivery was much better the second time around and Ella is a delightful baby. Wishing you all a new year filled with laughter, love, and happiness!
~The Gustafsons
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Christmas 2010 {Part 4: Stockings}
This marked the end of our gift giving extravaganza but not the end of Christmas for us. The Christmas season lasts 12 days which starts on December 25th and ends on on January 6th. We are still celebrating Christmas by listening to Christmas carols, watching Christmas movies, and we will leave our tree and decorations up until Epiphany.
Merry Christmas from our home to yours!
Monday, December 27, 2010
Christmas 2010 {Part 3: Christmas Day}
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Christmas 2010 {Part 2: Christmas Eve}
Happy in anticipation of the birthday of our Savior and dreaming sweet dreams of joy and peace.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Christmas 2010 {Part 1: December 24th}
This Christmas seems so magical with our little family of four! This Christmas eve afternoon, we opened presents together as a family. This is the first year that Nicholas was more excited about the actual gifts and not just the paper and bows. Ella, on the other hand, really just loved the wrapping paper. Jeff bought me an iPad this year, which is a fantastic gift for me, but I think it is going to be so great for Nicholas. He will be able to play games so much easier with a larger screen. Tonight we are going over to my folks house for their annual Christmas eve party. We are looking forward to seeing all of our friends and family members and eating all the delicious food my mom always prepares.
Wishing you all a joyous Christmas!
Monday, December 20, 2010
Let's Try This Again, Santa
This evening I needed to make a quick trip to the mall and I decided to try the Santa visit again, but this time it was just Ella and me. The line wasn't too long and Ella did great meeting St. Nick for the first time...no crying, just happy to be held. I think the photo turned out great. And since Nicholas didn't get to visit Santa (not that he really wanted to anyway) I made a custom Santa video for him:He absolutely loved it and was excited that Santa said his name and that there were photos of him in Santa's book.
You can make your own personalized Santa video for your children here:
http://www.portablenorthpole.tv/home
So both the kids got a bit of love from Old St. Nick and we are ready for Christmas!
So both the kids got a bit of love from Old St. Nick and we are ready for Christmas!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
No Santa Visit This Year

Yesterday morning we decided to take the kids to visit Santa at our local mall. Nicholas woke up feeling great, so we thought it would the perfect morning to go. We were right, when we arrived at the mall, there were only three or four families in front of us and we decided to wait in line to let the kids sit on Santa's lap. While waiting in line we began to notice that Nicholas was becoming distressed. He was crying a little, and looking somewhat worried. We thought maybe he was nervous about seeing Santa because during the twenty-minute trip to the mall he was talking and laughing and feeling great. We talked to him about Santa and explained what would happen, but he started doing worse, becoming sweaty and pale. I laid his stroller seat back until it was nearly flat and Jeff took him out of line to suction him. I stood in line for a minute or two with Ella in my arms and let a couple of families cut in line in front of us. Finally, I walked over to where Jeff and Nicholas were and Jeff said, "he's not doing good." I took one look at Nicholas and told Jeff, "He's not breathing." I gently laid Ella down on the floor beside the stroller, and yelled for the people standing nearby to call 911 while Jeff suctioned Nicholas again. Then I started CPR. By this time Nicholas was as white as a sheet and looking terrified. On my fourth breath he started coughing and crying and gasping. I silently said a prayer of thanks to God for allowing our son to stay with us. By this time, two people had phoned 911 and were giving them our information. Another man, a local police officer, asked if he could pray over Nicholas, we gladly accepted. We decided to meet the EMTs in the parking lot. Jeff scooped up Nicholas and I picked up Ella and pushed the empty stroller outside the mall. We explained to the EMTs about Nicholas's disease and asked that they check his vitals since we did not have our pulse/ox with us. They didn't have a child size finger monitor so they had a very difficult time reading Nicholas's oxygen and heart rate. They told us they wanted to take Nicholas to OHSU, but also said that we know him best as his parents, and we could refuse service if we thought he was okay. We monitored him in the back of the ambulance for about ten minutes and then decided he was ready to go home. Once again, Jeff held Nicholas in his lap the entire ride back to our house. In the car, Nicholas was back to his normal self, although much quieter than usual. We kept asking him if he was okay, and he would reply, "uh-k." Upon arrival at home we immediately hooked him up to his pulse ox which read 98 O2/132 pulse and we felt relieved. We also did a cough assist/suction treatment to get more air into him and clear out all those yucky secretions.
Now that this has happened twice in a month, we realize that we are going to need to change things in the way we travel with Nicholas. We are looking into getting a car bed for him which will allow him to lay flat while we travel. We will also be bringing his suction and pulse/ox with us wherever we go. We are hoping his pulse/ox will alert us when he's not doing well before he gets to the point of not being able to breathe. We realize that Nicholas's disease is mostly likely progressing, however, we also contribute his extra phlegm to his teething (he's cutting three molars) and his recent cold. At any rate, it is important that we have the proper equipment in place to make sure our little guy is comfortable where ever he goes. For the time being, we are ceasing our weekly two-hour round trips to Shriners for power wheelchair practice simply because we don't have the travel equipment. If any SMA parents are reading this and have any information about things we should try or equipment you use with your kids, we would appreciate your comments.
Since yesterday, Nicholas has been continuously hooked up to his pulse/ox and his stats have remained good and he has not had any further breathing problems. We are staying home this week until Christmas Eve and then we will only be traveling a mile to attend my parents' annual Christmas Eve party. We are also limiting the number of people who come into our home as we are trying to keep Nicholas feeling as well as possible without any outside germs.
Thanks to everyone for your continued prayers for our family, and especially our little Nicholas.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Ella is 3 Months




Today our little pumpkin is three months-old. A few days ago, my wonderful friend, Heather, took Ella's three month photos and snapped a couple cute ones of her with her brother, too. I just love them and had to share with everyone. Ella is a wonderful baby with a sweet temperament. She smiles and coos all the time and frequently laughs out loud. She sleeps 6.5 hours or more at night now which means that mommy gets great sleep too! She loves to eat and is chubbin' out! In fact the only time she really gets mad is when she has to wait to eat.
We love you so much Ella Belle!
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- We are the Gustafsons: Daddy Jeff, Mommy Jessica, Big Brother Nicholas and Little Sister Elizabeth. We started our blog in 2008 when our son was born as a way to document our life. Jeff and I feel so blessed to be parents to two amazing kids. Our oldest, Nicholas, was diagnosed with a terminal condition called Spinal Muscular Atrophy. We are praying for a cure for Nicholas and all children who suffer from this physically limiting diagnosis. We are also parents to a little girl who who brings us sunshine and laughter everyday. We treasure every moment with our sweet kiddos. Please let us know you visited our blog by leaving us comment. May God bless you today and always.
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